i blog because i like sharing this small percentage of my life with others. i blog because i like writing. but i did not blog to receive judgemental brickbats from people who doesnt know me at all.

of course, i should see this coming. there will be people who are just out to annoy you in this blogging world.its either sooner or later.

but, did my writings offend you in one way or another? cause that wasnt my intention. but i guess, i did. and you in turn felt obligated to offend me.

did my experience of miscarrying offended you so much till you had to leave me that hurtful message? i am sorry that i miscarried then. its my fault that it happened. and i deserved it . as how you, anon, put it.

if you had left me your name, i would be able to apologise to you for causing you pain/anger/hurt or whatever that you felt that strongly motivated you to leave me that message.you had me guessing....but only for a second.

see anon,nobody who knows me personally spells my name hanna. only one person spells my name with a double n. and i know who that is. and because of that, i also know who you are. everybody else who knows and loves me for who i am spells my name as hana.

my point is, you, anon, dont even know how to spell my 4-letter name correctly but ironically, you act as if you've known me all my life. the absurdity.

a story to share.

there's this ex-blogger that i 'know' through stories from a girlfriend of mine. lets call her A. A is caught up in a ugly love triangle where she is, unfortunately, the unwanted one. but A blogged as though she has the happiest relationship ever which of course, contradicted whats really happening.

if i was anything like you, "miss-know-it-all-and-i-will-make-judgemental-statements-to-people-that-i-do-not-know-at-all", i would have done what you did to me, leave her a hurtful message, telling her how pathetic she is at her blog,fotopages or multiply.

but the thing is, i do not know her.i am just a reader of her blog. i just listen to stories that were being told. who am i to tell her that her life is pathetic? or that she is being taken for a ride? or that she is being laughed at by people? who am i? i am but a nobody to her.

just like you, anon, you are a nobody to me.

dont do that to people. that wasnt nice.

i am going through a rough moment in my life, and yes sometimes i think whether its God's punishment for me. but no,no.. its wrong to think like that. Tuhan Maha Pengasih. Tuhan Maha Penyayang. God loves us.

i accepted what had happened. i lost my baby. but i gained so many, many wonderful friends.. be it online or in life. my husband and me became closer. my family and me became closer. and i saw and felt tremendous love from my friends. it was to me, a sweet and sour experience.

so anon, i've said my piece. you may want to reply. you know my email. feel free.

yours sincerely,
hana (with a single n)